I have waited for today for three weeks. I knew things were going to be busy so my expectations were very low for what I would accomplish in the me aspect of my life-the sewing part of me.I tucked it away while I did the fun stuff with them and enjoyed every minute of it. I didn’t want to wish my time away with end of the year kid stuff but the carrot at the end was-today. A day when I could sit and sew and they could play outside and just have fun in the sun.

     Except when I went to sew, I had machine problems. Once again. I must deal with my machine issues( I don’t know how yet but I think a trade-in is warranted!) and -my really sore neck. I don’t know what I did to it! Ouch!

     In all my mental confusion from all these classes and information overload, maybe I have driven myself crazy. I do know one thing from this temporary break from sewing.

     I am not one bit happy unless I sew. Every day. I miss the process . Having something in my hands-be it machine or handwork is a part of me. I knew it before. But it doesn’t matter if it’s good or bad art, it’s just not me without it. I really have struggled with whether what I do or will do is good enough lately. But it doesn’t matter if it is good enough for anyone but me. Because I just need to sew to be me.

     So, tomorrow on our three hour drive to a soccer finals game -you know I will have sewing in my hands. Because, I am not driving there.

     I might need some serious Aleve or Advil though. I am back.

Happy sewing, my friends!